El Deseo

Some days I get home from school and just have this great desire to do nothing. I spend all day trying and trying with these kids just hoping that they learn something. There are days that I feel great, like I could teach class standing on my head and the kids would still understand. There are other days in which no matter how hard I try, no matter what I try to tell them they don't want to pay attention and they don't want to try and learn. What ever happened to those days when kids wanted to learn? Oh right, that's not in middle school, that's back in elementary school. I have thought so much about staying a second or third or fifteenth year but it's challenging when certain I come home knowing that I haven't taught anything to the kids. I was hoping that things wouldbe better with the new teacher here but I still just can't get a handle sometimes on how the kids behave. It seems that there are certain days in which I show up without a lot of energy and those are definitely the worst days! If I don't have energy to deal with the kids then they just run wild (like today). Maybe if I had some feedback from people about my teaching style and how I interact with the kids then I could change how I run the class...maybe learn something. After all, almost none of us teachers have any experience, a little feedback would be nice to have in this situation. Oh well...what can you do but just survive to see another day of chaos and class?:)